actually, i have finals tomorrow and a state exam on jan 24. still, i felt that i need to blog about it. maybe you all will not thing that important at all, but u will know my feeling when u go oversea for further study.
while on the way home, my friend mention about the malaysian friendship and 团体精神. i asked her, how do u know that?. she said she saw the picture of me,tyj, awyy, and elaine pictures. she was surprised that we can be such good friends. cause in here, there's no 团体精神. we don hang out in the weekend. we don hang out after finals. we don stay after school and share stories. we were just live in our own life, by oneself. after school, go straight home, that's it! then i told her 这只是团体精神的小小部分,真真的团体精神是全班50++同学一起参加歌唱比赛,一起带领学校运动会,一起庆祝考试结束,一起去class trip, 而且还是过夜的哦! she was surprised when i told her all the spiritual stories in malaysia. this is why i love malaysian's friends so much! this is the spirit that i love! since i came to NY, this kind of spirit din came to me again. i miss this spirit so much! i tried to make this kind of spirit exist in my life in NY, but my friends, din even called me out.
when i came back home, straight away, without thinking, i went to deltaairline.com. check on the price of one-trip to malaysia. back in realitygloria! what am i thinking! my future will be ruin if i go back to malaysia now. i don have a graduated degree in high school! what am i thinking! if this year, 2012 is the end of the world, i'll click the "submit" buttton on delta airline and pack my things ready to go back to malaysia. i'm serious, and i'm desperate!
but, IN REALITY! I CAN'T!
REALITY HURTS!